I Did My First Sprint Triathlon, Here’s What Went Right and What Went Wrong

In September 2023, I participated in my first sprint-distance triathlon in Vancouver’s Stanley Park. The race comprised a 750m swim starting from Second Beach, followed by a 20k bike ride—two laps around Stanley Park—and concluding with a 5 km run to Burrard Bridge and back to Second Beach.

Before training for this race, I had close to zero experience with all three disciplines. I had swimming lessons when I was a kid, but I was only good enough to save myself from drowning… temporarily. That’s about it. Like many, I came into the sport most nervous about the first leg of the race: the swim. 

However, my cycling history wasn’t much better. I didn’t grow up with a bike; I learned to ride one at the age of 13 while hanging out with schoolmates. My most vivid cycling memories involve biting off more than I can chew—whether it’s renting a bike on vacation and venturing too far up a volcano or commuting too far in the city and finding myself needing to navigate a sketchy, heavy-traffic route home. Naturally, I associate cycling with near-death experiences. But I was really more concerned about the mechanical aspect of the sport. 

Finally, there is the run. I’m not particularly fond of running; I used to jest that the only way to get me to run was by giving me a bus to chase. Running for anything more than a quick sprint didn’t appeal to me, and I certainly didn’t take it seriously. Before registering for the triathlon, I had only participated in one 10k race—that’s the extent of my running experience.

So, that was my background before the triathlon. Not only was I a novice in the sport, but I was essentially a beginner in all three disciplines. I found a certain charm in that. I didn’t have to pick favorites; there was a wealth of learning in each of them, and learn I did. In my rebellious manner, I learned through making mistakes. While, yes, there were errors, there were also some small wins along the way.

Today, I’m going to share three things that went right during my training and race, and three things that went wrong. 

The first thing to go right is that…

I gave myself a lot of time in training

As mentioned, the race took place over Labor Day weekend in September, and I registered for it in March, providing me with a little over 180 days to prepare. It took about a week or two to find my comfort zone on the bike and a couple of months to control my breathing technique in the swim. Not only that, it gave me time to recover from pushing my body like I have never before. The sudden training led to shin splints, sidelining me from hard running for a week in March.

Having enough time on my hands also let me join a few smaller races in between. I did a 10k in April, a 5k in June, and another 10k in August. These races were great for getting used to the mindset of competing with others, which is tough to simulate in regular training. It helped me figure out how I’d respond when someone faster passes me—would I speed up? I wanted to practice the mental side of things too, and that required real-life experience. 

I’d say, if you are starting out. Give yourself as much time as possible. Commit to it early on and just make a year out of it. 

Now let’s talk about something that didn’t go well: 

Going too fast on the swim during choppy water

Everyone told me to go easy on the swim. I heard that advice, and I was planning to follow it. The only issue was, I wasn’t exactly sure how slow I should go, and I didn’t know what might happen if I didn’t follow the advice correctly. Sometimes there’s only one way to find out. 

On race day, the water was unusually choppy. I had practiced swimming the race course three times before the event, and each time, I felt quite comfortable. However, on that particular day, the conditions were wild.

Still, I wasn’t discouraged. When the race began, I joined the group at the starting line and just went for it. The first 200m went well, and I felt great keeping up with everyone. But things changed at the first turn; there was a bottleneck, and a wave hit me, making me swallow a lot of salt water. Despite people swimming around me, I had to keep moving, but getting around the corner was tough with the waves beating on me. I got exhausted and struggled to breathe. This was the result of starting too fast; I didn’t have the energy to recover. 

After making the turn, I was now swimming with the waves hitting me from the side I usually breathe on, my left side. It was a critical moment in the race, and I thought about stopping many times. But I remembered all the hard work to get to this point. Quitting after just a 300m swim wasn’t okay. I had to keep going. It was a struggle, but eventually, I turned back toward the beach, and the waves helped propel me forward. The worst was over, and I made it through.

Now for something that went right… and this is a big one: 

I finished the race

That was the only goal I had going in. Finishing the race. Getting that benchmark time and having a better sense of what needed improving. 

Many things could have gone wrong and stopped me from finishing. The tough swim was one worry, and my bike falling apart was another. I also had the fear of getting disqualified in my mind.

During the race, there were times when things could go wrong. I saw someone crash on the bike course, which affected me mentally, and the first kilometer of the run was painful, and I had to adjust a lot. The interesting part was figuring out how to balance everything rather than just pushing hard all the way to the finish.

Something that went wrong that I didn’t anticipate or practice was: 

Racking my bike… 

Returning to transition after the cycling portion of the race, I had to put my bike back onto the rack. I had so much trouble getting it on. First off, not that this was a problem, but I noticed that my bike saddle was crocked when I got to the race. I’m not sure how it got damaged. It might have been because of a crash a few weeks before (I’ll get more into that later). 

Anyway, I recall standing there, grappling with my bike, rolling it over my wetsuit and attempting to get it back onto the rack. Not only did I waste 10-20 seconds doing that, but I also expended a considerable amount of energy. To add to the chaos, I entered through the wrong side of the rack. Once I finally managed to rack my bike, scratching up my new shifter in the process, I had to run around to put on my running shoes. My transition 2 was not impressive.

Sticking with another thing that went wrong: 

My bike itself… 

Look, I still think I made a good decision getting the bike I did because I was close to getting an even worse bike. 

I didn’t want to invest in a pricey bike only to discover that I wasn’t fully committed to the sport.

This is a $500 hybrid bike, also the nicest bike I’ve owned so far. I pushed this bike to its limits during training, and a few components began to show wear, with the shifter being the most notable. Approximately a month before the race, every time I hit a bump, the left shifter would unexpectedly drop gears, which became super annoying.

My initial plan was to complete my first two races with this bike and then upgrade to a road bike. I’m honestly relieved that it managed to hold up and get me through the race. Because a week after, I noticed a clunking sound every time I pedaled. It turned out that the freewheel had broken.

I must have pushed it too far during the race itself. 

This little bike had a lot of action in a short amount of time and I’ve paid a lot since to maintain it. But after my first race, I decided to retire it from racing and purchase an entry-level road bike to take over. As for my old one, I use it as a commuter bike and it’s great for that. Despite not everything going perfectly, and a few stressful days, I wouldn’t change a thing.

Something that went right from beginning to end was my pleasure for 

Tracking progress

I got into this sport because it’s not just about fitness and gear; it’s also analytical. I enjoy tracking each workout, noting improvements or areas to work on. Using this data helps me adjust my effort and tweak my plan. Seeing myself get better gradually—swimming, cycling, and running longer and faster over time on a spreadsheet—brings me an abnormal amount of joy.

Second only to enjoying a beautiful summer day outdoors, observing my progress is my favorite aspect. It’s incredibly motivating to reflect on the beginning and recall how challenging it was to swim 200 meters. I vividly remember that version of myself, and it’s astonishing that in less than a year, I’ve gained so much more confidence in the sport. 

Without a doubt, if I hadn’t tracked my progress in some way, it would have been harder to remember where I came from and my commitment would have waned, and I likely would have given up, or at the very least, not signing up for another race.

That’s correct—I’m currently fully invested in triathlon as my recreational pastime. It’s been a welcome counterbalance to the extensive time I spend at a computer. I recommend it to most people with a sedentary job.

If you’re thinking about signing up for a triathlon and haven’t before, just know it’s a commitment. Starting with nothing, I spent at least $2000 getting ready for my first race, but the time I put into training made it worthwhile. It’s become a stress reliever I look forward to, and it broke up my day nicely. 

It can become quite an obsession, but when you’re working on a novel like I am, it’s more pleasant to share that you’re doing a triathlon rather than writing a novel. Both are braggy lines you can boast about, but at least with the triathlon, you don’t have to bore people with the details of your dystopian fantasy.

Well, those are three things that I believe I did well and three things that didn’t go as expected when I signed up for a triathlon. If you’re feeling inactive, going through an existential crisis, or just frustrated with the world, consider giving triathlon a try. Above all, it has been therapeutic, and I think that’s a good thing. 

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How a 30-Day Writing Streak Got Be Back On Track with My Creative Project

Finding the time and motivation to write can be demoralizing. In 2023, I had a lot of trouble sitting down and putting pen to paper, even though I had a massive project I needed to make progress on. At the pace I was going – producing only two to three pages in a notebook per week – I realized that continuing in this manner would get me nowhere. It became clear that I needed to change my approach if I wanted to move on to the next phase anytime soon.

I had to get back to my roots and examine what I did before to succeed. In the past, I’ve shared my experience many times about working a little every day and that was the habit I needed to get back into. A 30-day writing streak proved to be the catalyst I needed to reignite my passion for writing and establish a sustainable routine. Write 1 page minimum every day. If I can do that, then there is hope. 

Here’s a glimpse into my journey and the lessons I learned along the way.

1. Breaking Through the Resistance

Whether it’s battling writer’s block, self-doubt, or external distractions, the 30-day streak became my anchor through the tough times. Committing to writing daily forced me to confront obstacles head-on, transforming them from roadblocks into stepping stones. I know a lot of what I’ve written will be cut out in the editing phase, and that sucks, but I can’t worry about the tough parts in the future, I need to focus on the tough parts I’m going through now. 

2. Excitement Rekindled

The monotony of daily life can dull the excitement that fuels our creativity. After working all day, I don’t want to spend another 30 min to an hour at my desk writing. If it’s not something I have to do, I’ll convince myself not to do it. But if it’s not a negotiation, then it changes my mindset — instead of dreading it, I can look forward to it. I find time to fit it in. I treat it like a meal. If I can’t cook for myself maybe I’ll order something, either way, I need to eat.

Embarking on a 30-day writing streak reignited that creative spark within me, because I don’t let the embers go out. Each day brought a new opportunity to explore ideas, even if they are as terrible as the food I cook for myself.

3. Momentum is Everything

Momentum played a crucial role in my writing streak. The initial days were challenging. When you are on day 4, and you give up, not a big deal, nothing was wasted. It’s really important to get through the first week with your streak intact. Once you do that, momentum picks up, and quitting ceases to be an option. 

As I built momentum, the process became more natural and enjoyable. Momentum, I realized, is the key ingredient that propels you forward, making the act of writing a part of your daily routine.

4. Squeeze It In

One of the biggest challenges of a daily writing streak is finding time in a busy schedule. Squeezing in writing became a part of my day, but it’s not always easy. Things come up and it throws you off. You need to be flexible and prepared. 

You won’t always get to write the same time every day. There will be mornings when you wake up late or evenings when you need to attend to some obligation. If you can get the writing out of the way as soon as possible, do that. If you can’t do that, then you will need to rely on your anticipation. Busy day tomorrow? Where are you going to eat lunch? It doesn’t matter, bring the notebook with you and write immediately after. Block off thirty minutes, that’s all you need to scribble some words on a page. If you commit to having the notebook with you, incredibly, you’ll find a way to make time for it.  

5. Accountability Through Documentation

To ensure I stayed committed to my writing streak, I took an unconventional approach: filming myself. Creating a daily video log became a powerful accountability tool. Knowing that I had an audience, even if it was just future me, kept me honest and motivated to fulfill my writing commitment each day. The footage you are seeing now is me writing during the 30-day streak. 

If you want to keep yourself accountable, you don’t need to film, there are other ways. You can take a photo, do it with a friend, post about it on social media, or just mark it on a calendar. I like filming because it’s relatively hands-off, I just set up the camera and let it run while I do the work. It doesn’t need to be fancy, and you don’t need to overthink it. 

6. Don’t Kid Yourself

In the grand scheme of things, nobody needs me to write. It’s a selfish endeavor, driven by personal passion and a childhood dream. Acknowledging this fact eliminated any room for self-deception. If I want to write, I have to commit wholeheartedly, making it a daily habit for my own fulfillment. I can’t lie to myself and make myself feel righteous, and that all of this is for the benefit of humankind. No, this is for me. I want to do this. And that’s okay, but what’s not okay, is for me to keep bitching and being pissy that I have to do it. I don’t have to. I don’t have to find time for it. I’m choosing to. And any other attitude definitely doesn’t benefit anyone — not even myself. 

So, I feel like I’m back on track. Things are happening. 

Embarking on a 30-day writing streak proved to be a rejuvenating experience. A jump start I needed for my stalled vehicle. It pulled me out of a creative slump and instilled a sense of discipline in my day to day. If you’ve stopped doing something that you wanted to do, like writing, don’t hesitate—make it a habit, own it, and watch as the words and the days add up. That’s the best part. 

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San Junipero: Black Mirror, Can It Happen?

Before we discuss the events of San Junipero, let’s first take a look back to when this episode was released: Oct 21, 2016.

In 2016, consumer-grade VR headsets like Oculus Rift, HTC Vive, and PlayStation VR became widely available, making virtual reality more accessible to the masses. 

In the same year, VR found applications in healthcare, particularly for pain management during medical procedures. This was often called “Virtual Reality Distraction” or “VR Distraction Therapy,” where VR headsets created immersive experiences to distract patients from pain.

Mobile dating apps became the dominant platform for online dating in 2016, making the dating process more convenient. The concept of casual dating and hookup culture gained popularity, with apps like Tinder associated with short-term, non-committal relationships.

However, Tinder and its algorithm faced criticism for allegedly perpetuating racial and gender biases in online dating, which raised concerns about fairness and inclusivity.

2016 was a notable year for global equality, with countries like Colombia legalizing same-sex marriage. However, in the U.S., debates on transgender rights and bathroom access intensified due to North Carolina’s “bathroom bill”.

Tragically, the Pulse nightclub shooting in Orlando, Florida on June 12, 2016, targeted the LGBTQ community, resulting in 49 deaths and numerous injuries, making it one of the deadliest mass shootings in America.

Brittany Maynard’s 2014 case continued to influence the euthanasia and right-to-die conversation as it inspired discussions on end-of-life autonomy. In June 2016, California’s “End of Life Option Act” went into effect, allowing terminally ill adults to request medical aid in dying, making California the fifth U.S. state to legalize physician-assisted suicide.

2016 marked a transition year, with technology becoming integrated into various aspects of life, offering opportunities and challenges. This year set the stage for a more connected and digital society, impacting dating, healthcare, and our ability to cope with loss.

And that’s what brings us to this episode of Black Mirror: Episode 4 of Season 3: San Junipero, an iconic episode that invites us to contemplate the implications of a digital afterlife. 

In this video, we’ll explore 3 themes of this episode and determine whether similar events have happened — and if not, whether they are still plausible. 

Til Death Do Us Part

The episode begins with Yorkie navigating the bustling Tucker’s nightclub, where she crosses paths with Kelly, who encourages her to dance. This encounter sets the stage for a deeper connection beyond the surface allure of San Junipero’s neon-lit nightlife.

The 1980s was an interesting time. While there was progress in the women’s rights movement, traditional gender roles still persisted in many areas. Women were often expected to balance a career with homemaking, and men faced pressure to conform to traditional masculinity. Those who didn’t conform to societal norms often faced stigmatization. This included individuals with alternative lifestyles, like the LGBTQ community.

The American Psychiatric Association declassified homosexuality as a mental disorder in its diagnostic manual in 1973, but the emergence of the HIV/AIDS epidemic in the 1980s sparked fear and amplified existing stigma. 

While HIV and AIDS remain a concern, medical advances and a better understanding of the virus have improved the outlook for those affected. HIV today is no longer a death sentence, with approximately 39 million people globally living with the virus in 2022.

Acceptance is a major theme in this episode. Acceptance is also the final stage of grief. While Yorkie’s family never accepted her after she came out and after her accident, Kelly struggles to accept her husband’s death and the end of their marriage, despite her enduring love for him.

Aging, loss, injustice, and differing viewpoints are all factors we must accept. While we may start with denial, anger, and depression, we can’t grow without eventually finding a way to accept and live with these realities.

In the 1980s, mental health issues were not openly accepted, and individuals facing such challenges were sometimes viewed as weak or even dangerous. People often believed that those with depression could overcome it by “cheering up” or “snapping out of it.” 

In the same vein, conversion therapy, also known as “reparative therapy” or “ex-gay therapy” aims to change the sexual orientation of a person who identifies as LGBTQ. It was based on the belief that like being depressed, someone’s sexual orientation was a choice and could be “cured.” 

There is evidence now to suggest that genetics may play a role. Studies of identical twins have shown a higher likelihood of shared sexual orientation compared to fraternal twins. 

Today, while not universal, many LGBTQ individuals experience greater acceptance and support from their families and social circles, with same-sex marriage legally recognized in much of the Western world.

In 2000, Vermont became the first U.S. state to introduce civil unions for same-sex couples, offering legal recognition and benefits but not full marriage rights. It took four more years before Massachusetts made history by legalizing same-sex marriage, granting equal rights and privileges to same-sex couples.

But the war for acceptance still continues. In 2023, the battleground is the education system, where acceptance and inclusion are key to a new generation of LGBTQ feeling safe. Across North America, protestors and counter-protesters clashed at the steps of suburban elementary schools over the teachings of gender and sexual orientation. Should such topics be excluded from school curricula, leaving such education solely to parents? One side demands it. But what if those parents hold intolerant beliefs, similar to Yorkie’s parents? Where can children find support?

Approximately 41% of transgender individuals have reported attempting suicide at some point in their lives. Additionally, the suicide attempt rate among LGBTQ adults is nearly 12 times higher than that of the general population.
The rise of social media has enabled us to share messages, raise awareness, and learn from others, but it has also made it more challenging to find contentment in our own lives due to constant comparisons. Research conducted by the Pew Research Center revealed that about 60% of social media users in the United States experience feelings of inadequacy when they see others’ posts showcasing their accomplishments.

Social media feeds are filled with idyllic depictions of flawless marriages, dream vacations, picture-perfect families, and enchanting love stories, creating an endless popularity contest. However, it is crucial to recognize that the notion of a flawless life is a fallacy; such flawlessness does not exist in the real world.

And that is something we need to accept. 

Ghosted 

During their dance, despite their contrasting personalities, Yorkie and Kelly share a joyful moment. However, when Yorkie becomes overwhelmed, she leaves the dance floor, and outside, Kelly makes a sexual proposition to her, to which Yorkie declines by telling her that she’s engaged.

The following week, Yorkie returns, and in the restroom, Kelly once again propositions her sexually. This time Yorkie accepts.

But on the third week, Kelly is nowhere to be found at Tucker’s. Yorkie searches for her at the Quagmire, a BDSM nightclub, and bumps into Wes, the man Kelly had been avoiding. Wes, like Yorkie, expected Kelly to adhere to their relationship, but it becomes evident that Kelly has chosen to avoid the pain and complexity of such commitments by ghosting them.

Ghosting, which involves suddenly cutting off communication without explanation, became more prevalent in the mobile dating app scene, often leaving users hurt and frustrated. This phenomenon is emblematic of modern dating culture, where the ease of online connection and reduced face-to-face interaction can lead to less personal and sometimes inconsiderate approaches to ending relationships.

According to a 2023 Forbes study, 76% of participants have experienced either ghosting or being ghosted in a dating context. Nearly 60% of individuals report having been ghosted, while 45% acknowledge ghosting someone else.

After their intimate night together, Kelly experiences complex emotions. Her initial encounter with Yorkie at the nightclub was more about enjoying the moment and having fun. While she has developed genuine feelings for Yorkie, she also grapples with her internal conflict. 

According to Business of Apps, as of 2022, over 337 million people worldwide are using dating apps. And not all of them are necessarily looking for a soulmate.  

The dating app market is nearly a $5 billion industry that caters to diverse needs. For instance, Grindr is there for the LGBTQ community, Bumble empowers women to initiate conversations, and OkCupid lets users specify their intentions, whether it’s casual flings, short-term dating, or long-term relationships.

Time was referenced often in this episode, and does indeed play a crucial role in relationships and life. The intense passion in the early stages of romance are evolutionary mechanisms to help individuals form connections and reproduce, but they typically fade as relationships mature, causing us to question whether they were real at all.

In San Junipero, at midnight, those who are trialing the platform must return to their physical bodies. This serves as a metaphor for how we must confront the physical and mental challenges that come with aging, as well as our capacity for love. Kelly’s hesitation in forming deep emotional connections is partly due to the guilt she carries from her years of devoted love to someone she lost. Letting go of that love is a daunting prospect for her. 

Meanwhile, Yorkie sees being with Kelly as a chance to finally experience the richness of life and love that had been withheld from her in her previous existence.

In this way, to love each other is to let their past lives die. 

People now have the freedom to choose their experiences and relationships. Apps like Tinder popularized the concept of swiping right to like or left to dislike profiles, turning the search for potential matches into a game. 

However, the fundamental human experience remains unchanged. We still grapple with the passage of time, knowing that every decision we make and every opportunity we miss may come back to affect us. And so, it raises questions: What if there’s something better out there? What if we never find something as good again? Dating apps are games, where we create our own characters and hope that the chosen one leads to a happy ending.

Second Life or After Life 

At the end of the episode, Kelly faces a significant choice. Her decision centers around joining her late husband and daughter in the afterlife or staying in San Junipero with Yorkie and embracing digital eternity. 

The Internet has made the preservation of memories complicated. For those still alive, managing their digital legacy is a growing concern, and various apps and platforms help them plan the distribution of their digital assets and online accounts after their passing. Services like Everplans and Cake offer such support.

Some people may choose to leave more than assets and accounts behind. They want to create digital versions of themselves. Technologies like Replika, an AI chatbot, engage in conversations with users, preserving their thoughts and stories for future generations.

But the notion of permanent existence in another world raises questions not just for the afterlife but for our present lives. Many living individuals now opt to spend time in entertainment realms, where they can create avatars that reflect their personality more than their physical appearance. This mirrors Yorkie’s born-again experience, transformed by the Tucker technology.

One popular form of this digital second life is the game with the namesake: Second Life, where players create avatars and explore a user-generated 3D environment with various activities, from socializing to designing virtual items. As of 2022, there are 64.7 million active users on Second Life.

Online platforms provide safe spaces for people to explore and express their identities, and LGBTQ+ communities on social media, games, and apps have shown to offer support and acceptance.

While the hype for the Metaverse had simmered down for consumers, industries are still bullish about its potential. We see this with technology companies like Nvidia designing “digital twins”, a virtual representation of a physical object for use in constructing automobiles, infrastructure, energy, and more. 

The Metaverse is not going away, despite companies like Disney and Microsoft shutting down projects. In 2023, we saw Apple joining the market by announcing their headset, Apple Vision Pro. While it may seem laughable that we would be wearing those giant goggles all day, tech companies are betting that soon people will buy in.

The hope is by then, governments and policymakers will have a better understanding of the regulatory and ethical aspects of the Metaverse, especially concerning digital identity, data privacy, and virtual economies.

This leads to the topic of a second life as an afterlife. While digital immortality is not yet possible, it sparks debates, especially around a speculative concept called mind uploading. This involves transferring a person’s mental state, including consciousness and memories, from a biological brain to a non-biological or digital form. 

There are a number of companies already embarking on this venture, such as Nectome and Alcor Life Extension. But as of 2023, there doesn’t seem to be any advancement beyond preserving the bodies and brains of the deceased. 

If mind uploading ever becomes possible, its development will hinge on scientific progress, societal acceptance, and ethical frameworks, making it a complex and multifaceted journey.

James Hughes, American sociologist and bioethicist, raises a fundamental question: “The pursuit of digital immortality opens up a realm of ethical concerns. Who owns the digital copies of our minds, and what rights do they have?”

San Junipero is an emotional ride. The episode beautifully explores themes of love, identity, and the nature of existence. It’s known for its captivating blend of nostalgia, romance, and thought-provoking questions about life and death in a digital age. 

While rewatching this episode, I was surprised by how moved I got at the end. Perhaps now, I have gotten older. The past few years have revealed the potential bleakness of the world. Although I have made many commitments, the fear is not that time will stop, but that I may squander it by clinging to something fleeting.

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Why Finishing My Creative Work Isn’t My Goal

DNF. It stands for Did Not Finish. In a race, those three letters haunt all athletes. In the creative world, not finishing carries the same weight of shame. 

For many of us, creativity is something we often have to pursue in our personal time. We may steal moments early in the morning or stay up late into the night to work on our creative projects. The specific goals of these endeavors aren’t as important as the fact that we consistently dedicate time to them, with a focus on long-term progress.

However, life can unexpectedly consume our days and nights. Work, personal commitments, and unforeseen opportunities may arise, and we need to seize them. When this happens, time can slip away, and even when we do find time, we may lack the energy.

When the pandemic began, my schedule opened up in a way I hadn’t experienced since my school days. I felt like I had ample time to dedicate to my projects, and I made the most of it. I made significant progress on my novel, invested more hours in my video creations, practiced illustrating and animating, and honed my audio recording skills. I pressed down on the accelerator for three years.

But at the end of 2022, I fell into a bit of a depression. Personal struggles and painful childhood memories resurfaced, and I realized that during my free time, I was mostly sitting in front of a computer. I was rather working or laboring on my creative projects. My mind wandered into dark places, and I began to lose touch with myself. While I was writing my stories, I was also rewriting my own history, and it wasn’t a happy one.

During my darkest moments, I believed the only way to escape the pain was to complete my creative work. But there’s no such thing as truly finishing your work. The goal is consistency, doing a bit each day. There’s no destination; the journey continues. My healthy creative habit had become distorted, and I expected something grand to emerge at the end.

There was a moment when I recognized I needed to step away from the computer. It wasn’t that I wanted to stop working on my projects, but I had to balance that intense effort with other aspects of my life, including confronting my troubled memories.

Around this time, I had also become quite inactive. I’d stopped playing hockey since the beginning of the pandemic, and I wasn’t sure where to go next. I love hockey, but it was a time-consuming sport with a rigid schedule. Additionally, as a goalie, it was one of the most stressful positions.

I needed something I could control, something I could pick up on my own terms. My wife is a marathon runner. And endurance sports intrigued me. Surely it was a better alternative than self-harm. But I’d convinced myself that I wasn’t an endurance athlete. I labeled myself a quitter, and that is the theme of this narrative.

There were many mornings when I woke up and my wife was already out for her run. She would be gone for hours on end. I wasn’t sure if I could do that. But still, I needed something to replace hockey. So I kept thinking. I might not want to run every day, but what about adding cycling and swimming to break the monotony? For a few weeks, I contemplated attempting a triathlon, even though I had minimal, negative experiences with running, cycling, and swimming in the past.

As I considered these new challenges, my old, self-limiting stories were retold over and over in my head. I told myself, “Look at all those bad experiences; you don’t want to do that. Plus, with your history of quitting, you’ll just give up anyway, so why start?”

The more I repeated those stories to myself, the more I realized before I could finish my projects, I needed to rewrite my life. What would the next ten years hold for me? Would I become a bitter writer, endlessly struggling at my desk and resenting my creative work? Or would I seek new experiences?

I remember a passage from Haruki Murakami’s memoir, “What I Talk About When I Talk About Running.”[Amazon]  

“Some writers who in their youth wrote wonderful, beautiful, powerful works find that when they reach a certain age exhaustion suddenly takes over. The term literary burnout is quite apt here. Their later works may still be beautiful, and their exhaustion might impart its own special meaning, but it’s obvious these writers’ creative energy is in a decline. 

This results, I believe, from their physical energy not being able to overcome the toxin they’re dealing with. The physical vitality that up till now was naturally able to overcome the toxin has passed its peak, and its effectiveness in their immune systems is gradually wearing off. When this happens it’s difficult for a writer to remain intuitively creative. 

The balance between imaginative power and the physical abilities that sustain it has crumbled. The writer is left employing the techniques and methods he has cultivated, using a kind of residual heat to mold something into what looks like a literary work—a restrained method that can’t be a very pleasant journey. Some writers take their own lives at this point, while others just give up writing and choose another. 

If possible, I’d like to avoid that kind of literary burnout. My idea of literature is something more spontaneous, more cohesive, something with a kind of natural, positive vitality. For me, writing a novel is like climbing a steep mountain, struggling up the face of the cliff, reaching the summit after a long and arduous ordeal. You overcome your limitations, or you don’t, one or the other. I always keep that inner image with me as I write.” 

Inspired, I bought a bike, got a community pool pass, and signed up for my first sprint triathlon.

I eased up on my creative projects and made room for training, which turned out to be a rejuvenating addition to my day. Knowing I had a run, bike ride, or swim to look forward to made sitting at my desk more bearable.

Creative writing, too, is like a triathlon – it involves writing, editing, and publishing— three different disciplines. I saw threes in everything. A story is structured with a beginning, middle, and end. I find all the metaphors in this sport reassuring. As if this was meant to be. By temporarily pausing my projects, I can reflect on my life, much like a swimmer surfaces from the water to sight where he is going and where he has come from. 

Creativity is so subjective. There are no clear winners or losers. There are no rankings you can compare with others. And I think that is a blessing. 

While I do need to be evaluated and ranked to feel some sense of accomplishment, I don’t have to put that burden on my creative work. I can put that on something a little more objective — like athletics. My competitive energy, I can direct towards my sports. My creative energy, I can protect and keep for my art. While this spreads my energy across a wider surface of my time, I’m also happier this way. This is the new story of my life. I don’t have to be a writer locked up in a room, hammering away at a manuscript that maybe nobody will read and feel angry about it. I can write freely. And then go run freely. 

I do feel guilty for not dedicating as much time to my projects as I did last year, similar to the guilt I feel for not spending more time with friends, or the guilt I feel for not having travelled to Japan yet. However, I remind myself that this guilt is just a story as well. 

We are on a journey of healing, much like climbing a mountain or training for a race. Every day, we confront our limitations, whether we’re writing or standing at the starting line. Guilt is a toxin that can deplete our energy, so we must incorporate various disciplines in our lives to keep it at bay, enabling us to focus on what matters.

I might not be great at everything I do, but with this mindset, I’m able to do more and keep at it. I’m not going to be a professional athlete and I might not be the next best seller. But nobody can stop me from trying. I pursue it all now little by little. My athletic triathlon and my creative triathlon. Each time I sit down to write, I’m excited. Each time I go out to swim, bike or run, I’m energized. 

The dread of the DNF is gone. Because finishing is no longer the goal.

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Why Writers Need Both Stamina and Endurance

Writing requires stamina. Writing requires endurance. Often used interchangeably, these two words have slightly different meanings. And it is in these two different meanings that we can gain a new perspective on how we approach our creative work. 

So what’s the difference? 

To call on your stamina, you’ll need to be working at max exertion or towards muscle/mental failure for as long as possible. Endurance, however, is more about how long you can perform a certain activity, regardless of its intensity.

Participating in NaNoWriMo requires stamina. Writing a series requires endurance.

When talking about stamina, it often means you’re working within a time limit, and to hit the deadline you are working as hard as you can. If the project needs to be sent or submitted at some point, then you must call on your mental stamina to get it done. 

Mental stamina is our capacity to maintain focus, concentration, and mental clarity during demanding tasks or activities that require sustained mental effort. This can include studying, problem-solving, or engaging in complex projects like writing a short story or novel.

When you enter yourself in a writing contest or NaNoWriMo—National Novel Writing Month, where the goal is to write 50,000 words in a month—you need the stamina so that you can meet that time. If you don’t submit your work by the deadline or hit the word count by the end of the month, then you’re not yet in the right condition to tackle high-pressure projects, and some more training is required.

The more you build up your stamina the better you’ll be at getting a project to the finish line. Stamina is essential. 

But what about endurance? 

Endurance refers to the length of time in which a person can perform a certain activity, regardless of the intensity because it’s measuring the prolonged effort over an extended period. You can keep working on it without getting overly fatigued. Well-paced endurance could last a lifetime. 

If you are building a career as a writer, you need to have endurance. You need to be able to go from one story to another and write one series after another. Endurance doesn’t happen fast. It requires you to build a base and establish a habit over many months and years. The more regularly you write, the more endurance you’ll acquire. 

You need stamina to run one marathon. You need endurance to be a marathon runner for life. And that’s how we should think of writing as well. You need stamina to polish a short story and submit it before a deadline. You need endurance to build a collection that keeps readers coming back. 

Stamina gives you the speed and urgency to finish a piece of work, that way you don’t spend the rest of your life with a mountain of unfinished projects. However, you don’t want to burn out or bury yourself either, so you need to build your endurance too. Endurance allows you to establish a proper rhythm so that you can continue working after each milestone that way rest and recovery don’t mean quitting forever. 

With all that said, you’ll need two different types of projects. You need your shorter projects whether they be writing contests or creative writing courses, where you can do sprints and develop your stamina. These will allow you to determine how long certain projects will take you. Think of it like a race or a game.  Participate in competitions, and events, or find a job that requires you to finish something on time. These are opportunities to get your work polished and in front of people. After all, learning to get readers is something you need to practice. 

Then you should have bigger, more ambitious projects. These are life works. These are magnus opus. These will define you as a creative. Whatever it is: make it big. A big novel. A series. An epic. Keep working on it until it’s fully polished. Don’t rush it. Allow yourself to escape to it. Allow it to grow at its own pace. Endure the times when it gets hard. There will be many. Work on it a little every day, if not every day, every other day. If not every other day, as often as possible. But to truly build endurance, I recommend you try not to skip more than two days. Commit to it. Endure. It will all pay off. 

Writing requires stamina. Without it, you won’t be able to push yourself to finish. Writing requires endurance. Without it, you will always feel desperate to finish. No matter what you are working on, having stamina and endurance gives you the mental and physical strength to enjoy the process. It will be hard. It will be pain. But in many ways, that’s all there is. So you must have the stamina and endurance to get through it. Good luck! 

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I Outlined My Novel and Immediately Diverged from It. What’s the Point of Outlining?

I’m currently working on a trilogy, and I’m well into the first draft of book 3. 

I don’t usually outline my stories. And when I wrote the first drafts of book 1 and 2, as you may recall from these articles, I pants them… hard. 

I see myself as a discovery writer. I have outlined in the past, but I don’t particularly like relying on it to write, because I find that it often creates restrictions in my workflow and I can’t be as fluid. I have to keep checking in on the outline to make sure I didn’t skip any key detail. 

So why did I decide to outline this time? 

Honestly, I don’t have much time these days to work on my creative projects. And with only a short amount of time available each day—like 3 to 4 sessions a week—I didn’t want to wait for inspiration to strike. With an outline, I can see where I left off and get straight to work on creating scenes, figuring out what happens next, or writing dialogues.

At least, that was my plan. But outlines are hard to follow and all it takes is for me to make one change and like pulling out a Jenga piece from the bottom, the whole tower is shaky and if I make too many changes, the whole thing collapses, rendering the outline useless. 

Right now, I’ve completed nearly half of the first draft, and what I’m noticing is that, yes, I’m making changes. The specifics about the characters and events are definitely shifting from the outline. However, I also have a clear idea of where the story should ultimately lead. So, even if I veer away from what I initially planned, it’s not a problem. I can take detours, explore new ideas, be creative, enjoy the process, and eventually return to the important story beats I need to include.

For instance, I need my character to return to his hometown to kick off the second part of the story and then participate in a big battle during the third part. I have a good sense of the crucial scenes that need to happen between those points, but the way I choose to write those scenes is where I have room to experiment without feeling restricted by the outline.

That’s precisely what the outline provides me with. If I were journeying across the globe, the outline would represent all the flights I must catch in between destinations. What I do once I touch down is subject to change, but eventually, I’ll need to return to the airport and catch my next flight. The outline serves as my travel itinerary, not the schedule for every day of the trip.

I’m not particularly fond of using outlines, but I do need to bring this project to a conclusion at some point. By having the outline, I’m aware of the destinations I must reach to ultimately wrap this up. Now, if you’ve been keeping up with my progress, you’d be aware that I’m taking my time with this endeavor. But even though I’m not in a rush, it doesn’t mean I lack the desire to finish. During a journey, there comes a moment when you feel an urge to leave the beach and embark on a different activity. That’s where the outline comes into play. It tells me that I’ve lingered here too long and it’s time to get going to the next scene. 

This is how I keep myself from getting too frustrated when I deviate from my outline. I don’t discard it entirely; I still find value in using it. Its central elements are what I require. I’m free to modify scenes as much as I want, but I must hit those key plot points. The crucial thing is staying on track to hit those points. I’m in control. I can always guide my story back on course even if I stray off it.

That’s where I stand currently. I’m exploring as I work on the first draft of book three. I’m mostly enjoying this drafting process for the final time in this trilogy, because after this step, there’s going to be a lot of editing ahead. As much as I’m anticipating that phase, the first draft has always been the part I’ve enjoyed the most. This is another reason why the outline holds significance. It will push me beyond my comfort zone to see it through.

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Shut Up and Dance: Black Mirror, Can It Happen?

Before we discuss Shut Up and Dance, let’s take a look back to when this episode was first released: October 21, 2016. 

In 2016, commercial drones experienced a significant surge in popularity, with companies like DJI dominating the market. According to Gartner, the industry for commercial drones was valued at $2.8 billion.

Beyond their application as flying cameras, commercial drones brought to light various privacy concerns and raised questions about the delicate balance between safety, surveillance, and the protection of human rights.

Apart from law enforcement and government agencies, tech companies were also closely monitoring us. In 2016, Google made a change to its privacy agreement, allowing it to link users’ search history with personal information, including their names. Consequently, advertisers gained the ability to target individuals directly by their names. When questioned, a Google spokesperson explained that it was aligned with the way people use smartphones and how ads are viewed across multiple devices.

In late 2015, following the tragic San Bernardino shooting where 14 people lost their lives, the FBI obtained an iPhone but was unable to access the data due to the encrypted lock screen. Confronted with an unprecedented dilemma, Apple made a significant decision: it chose not to yield to the government’s demand to create a backdoor, primarily because of the potential security risks it could pose in the future.

During this time, it seems like everyone wants a piece of our information rather to sell us stuff, protect us, or scam us. 224,000 ransomware attacks in Australia were detected between April and May 2016 alone. These types of attacks require little technical skills and allow hackers to access the victims’ computers, much like how Shut Up and Dance’s protagonist, Kenny’s computer was hacked. 

2016 was a year before Playboy founder, Hugh Hefner’s death and the rise of the Me Too movement. Society was still grappling with the issue of protecting misogynistic individuals and their right to perpetuate toxic behavior.

This was starkly evident in the infamous 2005 hot mic incident involving Donald Trump during an Access Hollywood segment with Billy Bush. In that incident, Trump openly professed that he could do whatever he wanted with women, even going as far as making inappropriate comments about “grabbing them.” Despite this scandalous revelation, Trump’s actions did not prevent him from ultimately becoming the 45th President of the United States.

However, there was a shift in societal attitudes, both in the digital and physical realms. 

In 2016, the world began to redefine its understanding of what is considered right and wrong. An example of this change was seen with the South Korean website Sora.net, which published spy-cam porn. After some victims depicted in the videos tragically took their own lives, there was a significant campaign against the website, resulting in its official ban.

During the trial of Brock Turner, a Stanford student convicted of sexually assaulting a woman, his father stepped forward to defend him. He minimized his son’s actions, referring to the charges as a “steep price to pay for 20 minutes of action…” and attempted to portray his son as depressed. The public was appalled by this defense and united to make it clear that Turner and his father could not be seen as victims in this situation. 

In April 2016, a California woman filed a lawsuit against Jeffery Epstein and Donald Trump, alleging that the two billionaires assaulted her at a series of parties in 1994 when she was just 13 years old. Notably, it would take three more years before Epstein was finally arrested for his involvement in trafficking minors.

Let’s not forget about Jared Fogle, the disgraced Subway spokesperson. We all know what he did. He was arrested in July 2015.

Indeed, the mid-2010s was a troubling period marked by various forms of exploitation and ambiguity. The legal system, in an effort to catch a new breed of criminals, seemed to be navigating uncertain territory, blurring the lines of ethics. Naturally, those who had made a habit of crossing the line were finally getting caught. And that is what brings us to this episode of Black Mirror, episode 3 of season 3: Shut Up and Dance. 

In this video, I will explore three key themes from the episode and analyze whether similar events or concepts have occurred in recent years. Furthermore, I will assess whether these scenarios remain plausible in the present day.

Take a deep breath. This one is going to be a doozy. 

Deviant People and Infected Machines

The story centers around Kenny, a regular teenager who works at a restaurant and comes across as a kind individual. However, things take a turn when his sister borrows his computer to download videos, inadvertently installing malware. This event reveals that there’s more to Kenny than his affable exterior suggests.

Malware, or malicious software, has evolved alongside computers since the 1970s. The initial case was “The Creeper,” an experimental program that infected the TENEX operating system, showing the message “I’m the creeper, catch me if you can!” Though not directly harmful, it could replicate and spread. In response, the first antivirus program, “The Reaper,” was created to eliminate and halt its wider dissemination.

Over time, malware has grown in complexity and variety due to computer networks, the internet, and modern operating systems. According to a report by Symantec Corp., from 2016 to 2017, malware variants doubled with 669,947,865 different variants. Today, it includes viruses, worms, Trojans, ransomware, spyware, and more. 

Spotting computer viruses, like uncovering frauds and scams, remains a perpetual cat-and-mouse pursuit. Just as one deceptive approach is terminated, a fresh one arises.

Tech Support Scams are a prime example. Here, impostors pretend to be tech support from respected firms via unexpected calls or deceptive computer ads. They allege device problems, coaxing victims into granting remote access or paying for needless services.

GPS trackers have become a widespread tool. In 2021, Apple introduced the Airtag, initially designed as a key or luggage finder that owners can track if they lose or become separated from their belongings. However, there have been several incidents of Airtags being planted on individuals and misused as stalking devices.

In today’s world, there is a constant fear of harmful individuals gaining access to our sensitive data. Victims find themselves compelled to comply with the scammers’ demands to prevent their private information from being exposed. Typically, scammers engage in such illegal activities for financial gain. 

However, in the story of Shut Up and Dance, we witness a unique twist where the victims are unwittingly drawn into a wild goose chase, only to discover later that the virus and scams were orchestrated as a form of retribution, revealing that the victims themselves had engaged in wrongful doings.

We are quick to judge people, particularly their online behavior. Criticizing others on the internet has become commonplace, and with the emergence of cancel culture and doxing, nobody is immune to having their privacy exposed to the world. Unfortunately, the impact on the individual is often overlooked.

In 2015, a tragic incident occurred when 13-year-old Izabel Laxamana committed suicide after her father—as punishment— publically shamed her by cutting off her hair on video and sharing it on YouTube. Evidence of private events left in reckless hands becomes a potent weapon. A father using social media to punish his daughter had more force than he knew. Nearly a decade later, we are only starting to recognize the cost of public shaming and more importantly the difference between discipline and punishment. 

In the case of the vigilante hacker in Shut Up and Dance, their act of indifference towards Kenny and the other victims, sending the Troll face instead of prioritizing their pursuit of justice, raises doubts about their genuine moral integrity.

There is a valuable lesson to be learned from this episode. If you ever find yourself in a situation where someone is threatening to expose private data about you, remember one crucial rule when dealing with blackmail: Do Not Comply with the Blackmailer’s Demands, whether it involves paying a ransom or fulfilling their requests. Complying with their demands does not guarantee that they will keep their word, and it can even encourage more blackmail attempts, as demonstrated in this episode.

Privacy: Curtains or Locks

In this episode, a recurring theme is privacy and how technology dismantles the barriers that protect us during our most vulnerable moments, exposing us to the world. 

When we talk about privacy, it’s not about whether we have secrets or not. We all have things we want to keep to ourselves. Privacy gives us the freedom to make our own choices without worrying that the government or criminals will use our personal information against us.

Although hackers can’t physically harm us, they can inflict indirect damage. They can coerce us into increasingly perilous situations, ensnaring us further within a criminal network.

In 2017, the Equifax data breach compromised the personal details of about 147 million people. A substantial portion of this data such as names, Social Security numbers, birth dates, addresses, and credit card data was suspected to have been sold on black markets.

Back in 2016, there was a picture of Facebook’s CEO, Mark Zuckerberg, using a laptop with tape covering the camera. For many, this confirmed that hackers could turn on your computer’s camera without you knowing. 

Various types of malware can seize control of a laptop camera. A prime example is a Remote Access Trojan (RAT), a harmful program that hands attackers remote control over a victim’s computer.

While CEOs and public figures worry about privacy breaches due to their involvement with sensitive information, women are especially vulnerable to these attacks. 

In November 2013, 20-year-old, Jared James Abrahams pleaded guilty to hacking over 100 women’s computers and installing the highly invasive malware Blackshades in order to obtain sensitive images and videos of them. He got 18 months for that crime.

In the pandemic’s early months, as education went virtual, unauthorized people began intruding into online classes via Zoom, causing disruptions. These disruptions included sharing inappropriate content, making noise, and harassment. Sacrificing convenience for security, Zoom and educational institutions took measures to bolster defenses against Zoom bombing.

Government agencies like the FBI’s core mission involve enforcing federal laws and tackling cybercrime and online dangers like hacking, identity theft, fraud, terrorism, and child exploitation.

An instance of the FBI apprehending online sexual predators via surveillance is the 2015 case of Operation Pacifier, also referred to as the Playpen case. As a result of Operation Pacifier, the FBI was able to identify and arrest hundreds of individuals worldwide. While the operation was a success, the approach left many wary. It sparked debates about the ethical implications of law enforcement engaging in hacking activities and the potential challenges to privacy rights.

Surveillance is available to the “good guys” and the “bad guys.” It not only reveals criminals but our most private moments, feelings, and thoughts, making it difficult to trust anyone or anything around us.

It only takes one dumb decision caught on camera to destroy our reputation. “Shut Up and Dance” illustrates the paramount importance of privacy for that reason. Anyone could be caught with their pants down. So today, we are left with a question: how do we find the right balance between cautious sanity and controlled paranoia? 

Pornography and Everything that Comes After

The show doesn’t explicitly state what Kenny was watching, but it’s clear it involved minors, as his mother strongly condemns it at the end of the episode.

Thanks to the Internet, pornography—like communication and knowledge—is now more accessible and diverse than ever. This has enabled a broader and deeper exploration of fetishes, giving rise to communities like Looners (balloon fetishists), ABDL (Adult Baby/Diaper Lover role-playing), and Furries.

The impact of pornography on sexual attitudes and behaviors is an ongoing debate. Research indicates that exposure to certain types of pornography might lead to more permissive views about casual sex, unrealistic expectations, and acceptance of aggressive or non-consensual behavior. Some even link excessive pornography to millennials having less sex than earlier generations.

With that being said, views about the adult industry are also shifting due to the internet. Individuals are now empowered to create and share explicit content via social platforms, webcams, and amateur sites, blurring the line between consumers and creators.

Popular subscription platform, OnlyFans helped usher a new phase of adult content and sex work by promoting personal freedom and destigmatizing the industry. As it became acceptable to engage with pornography without shaming, the focus shifted to consumer protection. Much like the YouTube adpocalypse, a similar trend played out within the gated walls of OnlyFans.

In August 2020, actress and model Bella Thorne initially promised to share exclusive explicit content on her OnlyFans account. Yet, when her content was eventually released, the many misled subscribers were outraged to find that her content didn’t align with the implied explicitness. 

The situation got more intense when news came out that she made over a million dollars on her first day of releasing content. This whole thing highlighted the problems that arise when famous people join platforms like OnlyFans. As a result, changes in OnlyFans’ rules ended up affecting how much money many creators made.

Today, we’re more accepting of the fact that producing adult content is a decision made personally, with considerations of informed consent, boundaries, and individual circumstances.

On the flip side, unsolicited explicit images, known as “dick pics,” is still considered a disrespectful act, often a form of harassment. This digital form of flashing surged with the advent of camera phones. According to a 2017 YouGov survey, 46% of women had received unsolicited dick pics, with 22% of men admitting to sending them without consent. 

A memorable example was in 2010 when former football player Brett Favre was accused of sending “dick pics” to a female New York Jets employee. The incident garnered media focus and led to NFL fines.

While dick pics are generally unwelcomed, a large portion of men who send them (44%) are expecting a similar picture in return. An act of naivety rather than malice. But alas, the realm of online pornography can get much darker. 

The now-defunct IsAnyoneUp.com was infamous for being a hub for sexually explicit content distributed without the subject’s consent, also known as revenge porn. This resulted in legal actions against the creator and so-called “professional life ruiner”, Hunter Moore.

And still, the Internet got even darker—

In 2017, a video surfaced where British commentator, Milo Yiannopoulos seemed to defend pedophilia. His controversial comments caused him to step down from Breitbart News. The downfall of Yiannopoulos, already a contentious right-wing figure, demonstrated that some topics have no room for debate. 

YouTube always had strong rules against sexual content and pornography, but up until 2019, YouTube did little to protect children and younger users. The video-streaming company was often criticized for allowing inappropriate content targeting children to evade its moderation systems. What really opened their eyes was the serious legal issues they faced. By collecting information from users under the age of 13 without parental consent, they violated the Children’s Online Privacy Protection Act (COPPA), which cost them $170 million. 

Today, YouTube is making a commitment to safeguarding children and young users. One key approach was introducing a policy that limits or prevents comments on videos featuring minors. 

As we strive to stay safe, we should also be wary of conspiracy theories online, most notably those linked to extreme right-wing groups. These false claims often suggest large pedophile rings or powerful figures involved in such activities. These stories are designed to destroy the reputation of opponents and spread distrust in institutions.

Take the 2016 Pizzagate conspiracy, for instance. It wrongly alleged a D.C. pizzeria was a hub for child sex trafficking involving high-ranking Democratic officials, including Hillary Clinton. Despite being debunked, it gained attention and led to a shooting at the pizzeria.

If you grew up in the 2000s like me, you might remember the show “To Catch a Predator,” hosted by Chris Hansen. The reality television series aimed to expose individuals arranging sexual encounters with minors through online chats. The show collaborated with law enforcement for sting operations, leading to arrests at meet-up locations. Although the exact number is unclear, it is estimated that dozens were apprehended. In the new age of the internet, To Catch a Predator prompted discussions about online safety, despite facing ethical criticisms and questions about entrapment.

And that is where Shut Up and Dance sits. Like Chris Hansen, Kenny’s hackers operated in a grey area, albeit the shades are different. In fact, much of the Internet resides there now—neither purely good nor evil. We all breathe and sweat on this spectrum of allure and anxiety, which is what makes this episode so impactful. In the digital world, nobody is safe, we are all susceptible to scams, exposure, and reputational damage. 

“Shut Up and Dance” warns against getting too comfy online. Just like computers, we need to scan to detect viruses within, whatever might be messing up our “operating system.” What can be this anti-virus for our human soul? Certainly, that’s not something we can find on the Internet. Or can we? 

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Three Movies That Changed the Way I Write Endings

Here’s the kicker: If you stretch it out long enough, every ending becomes a tragedy.

I’m not a fan of happy endings, nor do I care much for neatly tied-up conclusions. The hero’s journey? Been there, done that. What really captivates me is an ending that catches me by surprise, leaving me deep in thought. I want an ending that’s so puzzling it makes me scratch my head in wonder and spark conversations that could go on for days. I want an ending that lets me draw my own conclusions about what comes next.

I’ve got this wild theory about endings: you can end it wherever you please! Want to leave your readers with a cliffhanger? Go for it! You can leave it open-ended or fade to black for a bit of intrigue. The choice is yours!

A good ending only requires two essential yet contradictory elements: surprise and inevitability. When you strike the perfect balance between them, you create a memorable conclusion that stays with your audience long after they’ve finished your story

In this post, I’ll share three movie endings that profoundly impacted how I view conclusions. Since watching these films, endings have taken on a whole new meaning for me. These three movies have left such an impression that I can’t help but keep revisiting them even now. 

The following will include spoilers. You have been warned!

Reservoir Dogs

At the end of Reservoir Dogs, a dramatic scene unfolds as Mr. White cradles a dying Mr. Orange, who confesses to being the double agent. In a tragic turn of events, Mr. White ends up shooting Mr. Orange as the cops arrive. 

Just moments earlier, Mr. Pink grabs the bag of diamonds and high-tails from the warehouse. To a casual viewer, it may seem like Mr. Pink is the sole survivor of the Reservoir Dogs’ ordeal.

However, if you pay close attention during the intense exchange between Mr. White and Mr. Orange, you can actually hear the police approaching, and there’s a faint commotion that suggests they may have apprehended Mr. Pink outside. 

I absolutely love how Tarantino cleverly tucked that key detail beneath the surface of such an emotionally charged scene. It’s remarkable how surprising and yet inevitable everything felt. Right from the beginning, we could sense the Reservoir Dogs’ impending downfall; we knew the police would arrive eventually. However, the suspense lay in not knowing who would be standing when it all came crashing down. Who might escape? Who would survive?

While many questions were answered, the delightful mystery of what happened to Mr. Pink after he left the warehouse still pleasantly lingers.

That’s the lesson I took from Reservoir Dogs: bring chaos together, keep your eyes focused on one part, and leave some details unseen. Allow the audience to infer, and trust that they will draw a more interesting conclusion than anything that could be filmed or written. 

The Departed 

The ending of The Departed remains one of the most shocking moments of my movie-viewing life. In just ten minutes, Scorsese managed to kill off several key characters, which is certainly not a move you can pull off regularly. You shouldn’t end all your stories with Mark Wahlberg shooting your protagonist, but man, it’s a brilliant use of inevitability and surprise.

The Departed serves as a guiding example for me when I contemplate the buildup to those crucial final moments in my stories. I aim to leave the audience with the same intense feeling one experiences after surviving a car accident. Achieving this impact requires careful planning and execution.

The characters need to be in a fast-paced situation, preoccupied with pressing events or red herrings, like someone complaining in the back seat. Then, in the blink of an eye, they must look up and face the unexpected surprise—a telephone pole right ahead. Bang! The combination of speed, distraction, and the shock of the inevitable creates the desired effect.

No Country For Old Men

The memory of my first time watching No Country For Old Men is etched into my mind. Sitting alone in the movie theater, I had been on the edge of my seat for the entire two hours. Then, just after Tommy Lee Jones shares some thoughts about his dream, the screen abruptly cuts to black. I found myself utterly confused, wondering, “Wait… what just happened?”

As I sat there, a whirlwind of questions swirled in my mind. Did I miss something important? Was it all just a dream? Did Javier Bardem’s character escape, or did he die? I couldn’t stop thinking about it. In a way, it was slightly annoying. I expected a neatly wrapped-up story and to leave the theater with all the answers I needed. 

The difference between movies and real life is that a movie needs to make sense, while real life often doesn’t. A movie needs to follow a coherent storyline, while real life often unfolds in unpredictable ways. I like it when endings in movies aim to blur the line between entertainment and reality. The goal is to immerse you in a captivating tale that allows you to escape your current world. However, once the movie is over, it should leave you with a nugget of truth to carry back into your life.

The beauty lies in the questions the movie leaves you with. These questions should be revisited often to ensure they still align with your core values and beliefs. That is what makes movies like No Country for Old Men worth rewatching

Do we feel comfortable with uncertainty? Are we fine with forming our own conclusions? Can we accept that others might have different opinions? That’s No Country For Old Men. It’s an ending that’s bound to divide the audience. Some will despise it and try to erase it from their memory, warning others to stay away because it doesn’t align with their idea of entertainment. Meanwhile, there will be those who can’t help but overanalyze and contemplate it. Sometimes, it’s gratifying to create something for those who fall into the latter category.

Entertainment can often feel super formulaic. We do need to learn how to write and tell stories within those boundaries, but we also have to find ways to make our work truly stand out and leave a lasting impression. And guess what? The ending can play a huge role in that. Nailing the landing is vital if you want your audience to remember your work, discuss it with others, or even engage with it on a deeper level.

A great ending should be both surprising and inevitable. How you achieve that is totally up to you. In my three examples, I found that offering subtle clues, introducing misdirections, and leaving room for interpretations are some effective ways to conclude a story and give your audience a reason to return.

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How Chuck Palahnuik Adds Texture to His Writing

Chuck Palahniuk, the author of Fight Club, Choke [Amazon], and Invisible Monster [Amazon], is widely regarded as one of the most influential writers of our generation. His remarkable talent lies in seamlessly blending raw storytelling with captivating language. In his memoir, Consider This: Moments in My Life After Which Everything Was Different [Amazon], he not only shares pivotal moments from his career as an author but also imparts invaluable writing advice from the perspective of a seasoned instructor.

I highly recommend this book to all writers, as it offers a level of actionable advice that I haven’t encountered since Stephen King’s On Writing [Amazon]. Palahniuk’s insights provide a true master-class experience. One notable technique he discusses is the concept of adding texture to your writing.

Texture, much like the indescribable appeal of a catchy song, often goes unnoticed while reading. However, when executed skillfully, incorporating texture into your writing infuses it with the same cadence, melody, harmony, pitch, and tempo that music possesses. This captivating quality firmly grabs hold of your readers and keeps them thoroughly engaged.

But what exactly is texture when it comes to writing? Palahniuk breaks it down into seven distinct forms: 

  1. Point of view (first, second, and third)
  2. Big voices vs little voices
  3. Attribution
  4. What to say when there’s nothing to say
  5. Passage of time and lists
  6. Repetitions
  7. Paraphrasing vs quoting

In this video, I will dissect each of these techniques and provide a concise summary of how to use them effectively, so you to incorporate texture into your writing.

Let’s go! 

1. Point of view

When it comes to writing, there are three types of points of view: first person, second person, and third person.

“I am a writer” is first person

“You are a writer” is second person

“Bill is a writer” is third person 

Palanuick encourages you to shift between these three POVs—not constantly—but rather as the situation demands. So, when is it appropriate to do so? When you want to evoke control, authority, intimacy, or change the pace of your story. 

2. Big voices vs little voices

Big voices are comments and introspections: they manifest as monologues, soliloquies, or the inner thoughts of a character.

In contrast, little voices are the immediate, moment-to-moment actions within a story.

For instance, a character’s contemplation of murder can be conveyed through the Big Voice, while the simple act of the character entering a store and purchasing a knife can be expressed through the Little Voice. Striking a balance between these two approaches will enable you to craft textured narratives.

Palahniuk cautions against excessive use of big voices, as an abundance of philosophical musings may undermine the overall texture of the writing.

3. Attribution

Texture often presents itself in the actions and behaviors of characters, particularly in the moments between their speech. Take a moment to observe the daily gestures of yourself and those around you. How do you instinctively move your hands after uttering something distressing? How does your friend shift his legs following an expression of frustration? Compile a collection of these wordless, swift movements and assign them to your characters. This approach will color them with greater dynamism and lend a textured quality to your writing.

4. What to say when there is nothing to say 

While a story naturally progresses from beginning to end, there are moments where no forward movement occurs. Like breaks in the narrative, these are instances when characters confront impasses, such as deadlock arguments.

Life is replete with such moments, where regardless of the character’s efforts, the situation remains beyond their control. It could be a character being emotionally affected by something strange they witness on TV, noticing food on a fellow diner’s face, or the struggle of holding in the need to use the bathroom. In these moments, there may be no words exchanged, but their actions speak volumes about them as individuals. 

Palahniuk advises us to compile a list of these paused moments, or what he refers to as placeholders. He then encourages us to strategically insert these moments into our stories, like jump cuts in a film.

5. Passage of time 

The most straightforward method to convey the passage of time is through the use of space breaks. However, Palahniuk cautions against relying too heavily on this approach. An alternative way to indicate the passage of time is by stating the specific time and then providing a concise account of the events that have transpired.

But, it is important to avoid creating a mundane list. If the character has just reached their destination, refrain from listing every single thing they passed on the journey: the school, the police station, the store, and so on.

Instead, envision the list as a montage. Picture the character following the same route each day: turning left at the school, attentively observing the school children, slowing down as he passes the police station, muttering a prayer for all the solitary shoppers, before finally arriving at the bar. Condense the time by employing montages and lists.

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6. Repetition

Similar to a mantra or the recurring chorus of a song, repetition serves as a powerful tool for creating texture. Palahniuk advises viewing repetitions as rituals. Observe how organizations, cults, and religions employ repetitive elements. What phrases or ideas are reiterated in a sermon? What concepts are repeated during an office meeting? In your own storytelling, craft something that can be echoed throughout the narrative.

One notable example from Palahniuk’s own work is the First Rule of Fight Club: “We Don’t Talk About Fight Club.” Adopt this approach and allow the repetition to take root in the minds of your readers. Let them anticipate its recurrence and allow it to be ingrained in their memories.

7. Paraphrasing vs quoting

When a character speaks, there are two distinct approaches we can employ to convey their lines. Both methods serve the purpose of delivering the necessary information, yet they offer contrasting experiences.

If you wish to highlight your character’s uniqueness and imbue them with greater personality, enclose their dialogue within quotation marks. On the other hand, if you intend to downplay your character’s significance or diminish their authority, you can rephrase or summarize their words. This technique may be subtle, but it proves highly effective in creating textured writing.

And there you have it—these are the seven techniques you can use to infuse texture into your writing. I’m curious to know: which method do you use the most? Additionally, which technique piques your interest? Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments.

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The Pros and Cons of the Pomodoro Timer Productivity Method

I love productivity hacks. I love thinking of ways where I can do more in the day. I’ve known about the Pomodoro method for a long time, but I always rolled my eyes at it. I thought it was silly to impose a break in the middle of working. I like being productive, and the idea that there’s a timer that’ll tell me when to stop working is the opposite of productivity. 

I now know that to be productive and maintain stamina, you’d want to take breaks. By taking breaks, you can end up working longer and more effectively. But when does taking a break become an interruption? That’s what I wanted to know myself. 

If you don’t know, the Pomodoro method is a productivity technique where you work for 25 min intervals with five-minute breaks in between, with a longer break of around 15 min, after four intervals. 

In this video, I’ll share my thoughts on using the Pomodoro method for the past month. What did I learn, what did I like, and what did I dislike? 

Pro: 

The Pomodoro Method is a great way to audit whether you actually have a focus problem. If you cannot work for 25 mins without stopping for some reason, not even for one interval, then my friend, you have a focus problem. If you want to test your focus, then using the Pomodoro method is a great way to do it. If you can’t maintain attention for one 25 min block, you need to ask yourself why. 

Con: 

The Pomodoro method doesn’t stop you from being distracted. It’s just a timer and it’ll ring at the end whether you were working or not. At many points, I would start doing something else in the middle of my focused time and forget that I was still on the clock. I could receive a message or a phone call that pulls me from my work, and suddenly the timer goes off. What do I do then? Make up the time in the break or keep working? Or count everything I was doing as work when it wasn’t? It’s hard to keep yourself accountable, and it’s hard to measure the success of an interval. 

Pro: 

It’s nice to know there is a break coming up and it gives me something to work towards. For example, if I have a small task—like writing an email—I would want to finish it in the 25 min chuck, so it pushes me to work efficiently within that time limit. Parkinson’s law states that a task would expand to the time you give it. And aiming to get something done in 25 mins and hitting that mark makes the break feel so rewarding. 

Con: 

However, when you aren’t able to complete your task in the 25 min, and let’s say, you need ten more minutes until you can complete it, you feel guilty for stopping and taking your break. I get conflicted when that happens, because in a way, I want to finish the work, and in another way, I want to honor the Pomodoro method and the “benefits” it offers. 

Pro: 

The Pomodoro Method shows that you’ve created momentum. On a good day, when I can add up the intervals of focus time, I feel that I have accomplished a lot. I average around 7 intervals of focused work, which at 25 min each, adds up to about 3 hours. Which is pretty productive. While those days are anomalies, it does feel good when I can get a streak going. 

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Con: 

It’s pretty easy to forget to set the timer. Yep, something I sit down after returning from my break and I’d forget to start the timer. I might have worked for 10 minutes before I remember to switch it back on, and when that happens, I bail on the whole Pomodoro thing for the day and just go rogue. 

Pro: 

The Promodoro method gives me a sense that I have worked. Reading and taking notes on an article never feels complete. As a writer, it can take days to write and edit a piece, and in 25 min little progress is actually made. But by focusing for 25 min, I know I have done some work and by chipping away 25 minutes at a time, my efforts will add up. This is especially useful when editing, where I can end up fixated on a sentence or a word for way too long.

Con: 

I’m not always sure what to do with my breaks, especially when it’s only five minutes. Five minutes is only enough time to go to the bathroom or get a drink of water. Sometimes, I just sit at my computer or wander back and forth. Which can feel unproductive, and I get a little antsy. Alternatively, the 15 min break can feel very long, but also not long enough to eat a meal or grab some coffee outside the office. When you’re committed to the Pomodoro Method, you’ll experience some unnecessary rigidity in the workday. 

Overall, I like the Pomodoro method and it’s something I use to kick-start a work session. Sometimes I think of work like a marathon where I just have to surge through and get to the finish line without stopping. But it’s exhausting to do that every day. Instead, with the Pomodoro method, I can think of work as run training, where you do intervals, you run hard for a few minutes and then you walk a bit to get your heart rate back down. As you do this over and over, you build stamina, so when it is time to hunker down, you’ll be fit to do so. 

If you’re wondering whether you have trouble focusing, try the Pomodoro method for a few weeks and you should start noticing these weird ticks that you have or what triggers pull you away from your work. Once you acknowledge them, you can then decide whether they are impacting your productivity and start eliminating them if they are. Give it a try and let me know how it goes in the comment below. 

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